TAKEN

I was in relationship with a bestfriend, it got more serious and we started dating. He admitted his feelings first and I figured I loved him so much as a person that we might make it as a couple. As months and days went by I realized I just didnt  ffeel like he did. He would talk like he was infatuated, taken back with me. I coudnt let myself stay in a relationship like that, so I tried to end it a few times. Each time he said what I ***** I was for leading him on and how hurtfull I was. It wasnt my interntions I didnt want him to feel like i had just used him to be in another relationship, it broke my heart. He was my bestfriend and when even I tried to end this he would put me down so low I couldnt break up with him. For months I dealt with all of his put downs and all of his hurtfull words until finally I got the guts to break up with him, despite how much poison he spewed. I dont even want to be in a relationship like that again.. Someone who puts me down to keep me around. Im not even friends with him anymore, I wish we'd never started dating because we were so close and so in tune with eachother before everything went down. I want my friend back, but I dont want this person he grew into.. thinking about it hurts but whats done is done and IM finally trying to move on.